im getting drinks with an ex tomorrow. im driving half an hour and paying a bridge toll to see someone who made me doubt everything about myself. she sent me a picture of us from when we were together and it made me feel really uncomfortable. short story short: i hate everything
too lovely to be alone, too lonely to love
this was a year and a week ago. it was two months after the person i care most about in this life told me she didnt love me anymore.
and since then ive met some amazing people. ive learned to be happy. i fixed what she broke in me. and i feel like a completely different person since this time last year. but my heart still aches the way it did then. and im not sure that it ever wont stop aching. it makes me very afraid.
5. do you chew on your straws?
heh, hi ben. no, i keep my straws intact.